PUERTO GALERA OVER THE LONG WEEKEND

Last October 31 to November 1, it was the very first time I experienced going on an overnight trip with friends, without adults, and not as a school activity. I do not know why it took me so long to start doing it, but I am glad it finally happened. 

because of this sudden trip, I made it my 2017 goal to explore more of the Philippines. 

I am thankful to God for giving me this trip, and igniting in me, the heart of the adventurer. I hope that this will be the first of many posts of my adventures around the Philippines. From roadtrips to airplanes rides, I hope to do them all. 

This post will just be a bunch of our pictures in Puerto Galera. I traveled with my boyfriend and two other friends. My boyfriend and I don't really travel alone to protect ourselves from falling into sin, so we make sure that when we will go on an overnight trip, it will be with people we can be accountable to. 

we enjoyed the sand, sea and sky. It was also perfect that there were not a lot of people in Puerto Galera at that time. 

GOING TO PUERTO GALERA

we took a bus from Makati to Batangas. It cost us 167 pesos each. Since it was around 3am in the morning, and since it was a holiday, there were hardly any cars on the road. The travel time was around an hour and 40 mins, very much faster than we expected.

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(verse)

Please don't see 

just a girl caught up in dreams and fantasies

Please see me 

reaching out for someone I can't see

Take my hand let's see where we wake up tomorrow

Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand

I'd be damned Cupid's demanding back his arrow

So let's get drunk on our tears and

TURNS TO GRAY original composition

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TURNS TO GRAY

(verse)

butterflies, sunny skies

warm sunsets starry nights

it began like a bang, surprise

a balloon, in the clouds

the wind blew, it flew

soared high as if never to come down

freedom!!!!

I again found myself self-reflecting when I stumbled upon a picture of myself on my phone.

                                               

I smiled while looking at it because I realized how far I have come from the insecure girl that I used to be. Starting college, I remember having conversations with my teammate, who is also a good friend, Bea. We would always talk about our insecurities, how we deal with it, how it controls us, how it manifests itself in our lives. This, for the first time, I will share today.

Insecurity has taken hold of many aspects of my life, but for today, I will focus on my insecurity with my looks and my heart. Let’s start with the looks.  I didn’t always watch my weight; in fact, I grew up a really skinny kid. I remember people would always tease me that I was too skinny to carry my tennis racket. When I hit puberty, I wasn’t called skinny anymore; I was sexy.

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(verse)
you make me smile like the cheshire cat
laugh until im out of breath
make me float away onto the moon

i miss

i miss birthdays where your parents plan a party for you and invite friends you've never met. i miss birthdays where i wear red and i have no idea why. i miss birthdays with hosts and dancing mascots. i miss birthdays where i get to stand with the magician as i participate in his magic trick. i miss birthdays where i get to see a whole table piled with gifts. i miss having a chocolate cake saying "Happy Birthday Sarah" with edible flowers decorating its corners. i miss birthdays where i get to blow a candle as a crowd gathers around me singing happy birthday. i miss opening colorfully wrapped boxes with the excitement of seeing whats inside. i miss feeling that special on my birthday. birthdays are just not the same anymore.

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Para sa Akong Gihigugma

Thank you...

Women of The Lord

no daughter of God is worth anything less than the best. if God plans the best for His child, then that's the standard the child is supposed to set.

Women of God, do not settle for men who will not reflect the love of Christ in their lives. do not settle for men who will just incorporate you in the list of choices. wait for God to bring the right person to you, because when you are not too busy and taken with the less-than-best, God can smoothly and easily give you the man he has kept for you.

keep denying yourself. keep clinging on to the Lord. i know it's difficult. there are times when you just want to let go and say "screw this", but persevere, because when you get to where God wants you to be, the suffering does not compare it.

a mouthful of coffee

Seeing old photographs of us is like grinding coffee beans in my own mouth.

what happened to us? i've always pictured my college years spent in each other's houses having sleepovers and laughing the hours away. i always thought we'd be sharing our first job hunting experience and ranting in frustration of the wrong turns and wasted gas trying to find the right street. i imagined having this lifelong bond filled with memories of when we were just little children with no sense of the real world.

often i've wondered about the what ifs. what if i wasn't such an immature jerk? what if i remained the quiet people-pleaser that i was, would things have been better? was this really God's plan or was it mine?

how long will these memories keep me company? i've tried shoving them deep into the unconscious, yet it finds a way back. i've tried the whole crying it out, but somehow, i ran out of tears long before i ran out of memories.

maybe i just have to forgive myself. maybe i just have to forgive you.