i miss

i miss birthdays where your parents plan a party for you and invite friends you've never met. i miss birthdays where i wear red and i have no idea why. i miss birthdays with hosts and dancing mascots. i miss birthdays where i get to stand with the magician as i participate in his magic trick. i miss birthdays where i get to see a whole table piled with gifts. i miss having a chocolate cake saying "Happy Birthday Sarah" with edible flowers decorating its corners. i miss birthdays where i get to blow a candle as a crowd gathers around me singing happy birthday. i miss opening colorfully wrapped boxes with the excitement of seeing whats inside. i miss feeling that special on my birthday. birthdays are just not the same anymore.