Tertris Battle

if there is one thing you would choose never to feel or experience, what would it be? my choice would be rejection. i don't fear death and yet just the thought of being rejected makes me want to crawl up in the corner of my room and make my home there. its very evident that the within me is a Tetris wall of issues under the game called insecurity. insecurity is my weakness. blocks and blocks of issues pile up inside leaving gaps and holes that long to be filled. 

but you know the good news? in this world i need different pieces that fit perfectly to make it all go away, but my omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent father filled all those distinct holes already. Fact remains that the game continues. Challenges still fall, but im not playing this game anymore. i already gave the controls to the game master himself, He who is undefeated in all ways. i can't run from my emotions, it will always be there. i am still in this game. But within me, in my very core, though i know the battle is still ongoing, i am assured of victory. i can sleep soundly at night dreaming of the day that it all ends. i have this internal peace that calms my soul. 

yes i know how to play tetris. i could be good at it, but i'm not the best at it. the wall piles up until it can't be contained anymore. but we know that the ridiculously great player can choose to build that wall before he brings it down or he can choose not to bring it up at all. Whatever the strategy is, He is in control. He makes everything fall to its place according to His perfect plan. let's stop trying to grab the controls from His hand. the Creator is always greater than the Creation. Trust. Faith. 

He will never leave you nor forsake you (Heb 13:5). His way is perfect (2 sam 22:31). The works of his hands are faithful and just (psalm 111:7). despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us (romans 8:37). I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart (john 14:27). In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world (john 16:33). peace I leave with you, my peace i give you... do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid (John14:27). But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at east, without fear of harm (prov 1:33).