tsk tsk tsk

tsk tsk tsk. that's what i hear in my head when i know something isn't right. my humanity takes over as though i am not in control. what am i doing? i go on and on. stop. blah blah blah. no. no. no. silence.

i can never be God's perfect little girl in this body. although i live in the spirit, i am still confined in this finite home. my spirit constantly battles with my flesh. i sin. i still sin. and im sorry. i wish i could stop, highlight, delete, then type again. but i cant. my conscience pesters me even with little things- things that are not really alarming. to the world it might be nothing, but to me it is everything. guilt consumes me as though i committed murder. a little skin beyond the line and i feel like i've jumped over it. but im glad.

im glad that i feel guilty. im glad that God still shows me when i am out of line. im glad that i know when i make Him sad or mad. im still human. sinning is inevitable, but then i have God. forgiveness is freely given. Thank You, Father, that i can run to you at times when i fail. Thank You, Jesus, that you see my repentant heart and You forgive me. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for consuming me and continually purifying me. Thank You for Your love. Than You for your patience. Thank You for Your grace.