Flippin Your Fins: it's not the result, it's the heart

Sunday, January 29, 2012

it's not the result, it's the heart

Today wasn’t a good day for the team or myself. I actually had a good morning, so I thought our game was going to be favorable to us, but it didn’t. I am sure each and every single one of my teammates, including myself, wanted to win, and I am sure we all did our best; it was just not our day.

I feel really bad, I’ve actually been crying all day. I don’t think it’s just about my losing. I guess there’s a whole lot more to it; some accumulated issues, but oh well.

Although things didn’t turn out as planned, I still thank God that we are able to play and represent our school and fight. Maybe God is humbling me.

I’m so thankful as well for the people who cheered me up. My teammates, Dubs, Alvee, Martina, Mara, Rachel, Sam, Kuya Walden, Kuya Carlo.

And to the team, I love you all, and I’m still happy to be playing for and with everyone.

Oh and I just remembered how I cried, it felt so dramatic. So it’s my first loss for last year and this year’s UAAP, and after I shook hands with my opponent, I walked to the umpire. Unfortunately, I already felt that my chest was about to explode, and my eyes were already flooding. I walked very fast towards my teammate, bea. She was sitting on the floor and the moment I reached her, I immediately sat down and started crying to her, and she hugged me, sweaty and all.

Thank you, Bea. Your hug meant a lot to me. I love you.

And all my teammates’ pats on my back and meli telling me that it was ok meant so much. I appreciate everything. Ok I wanna cry again. Hahaha! But really guys, Im really thankful for it, I just want you all to know. I’ve been down for the past weeks, and I guess my loss became the opportunity to let it all out, and that huddle when I cried is just what I needed.

Also, thank you to, Kim. When we were inside the bathroom, I was really able to cry it all out and she sat next to me and she whispered that she knew that I did my best, and I know in my heart that I did my best and that’s what matters. She even touched my heart when she said it. Kim, you’re the sweetest friend ever. I love you.

so here are some of today's pictures