My experience in church today was amazing, and I want to document every thought in my head, and every detail that I could remember of what has transpired.
When I walked in church today, I immediately felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. I am very sorry but I really can’t describe the feeling, I don’t think there’s a word for it. There’s just that amazing stirring in your heart that you know the Holy Spirit is present.
Our pastor preached about praying for spiritual blessing. He explained what Jabez meant when he prayed to God to expand his territory and to bless him. Pastor said that Jabez wasn’t after the material blessings, and Jabez wasn’t talking about geographical territory. By territory, Jabez meant the people he can reach to preach God’s word, and by blessings he meant spiritual blessings so that he may grow deep in his relationship with God and have that burning passion for Him.
I knew I wanted that blessing. I wanted to pray and shout to God what Jabez prayed for. I want that spiritual blessing. I want to have the burning passion and desire to know God and serve Him. I want that burden to share and preach his word. I want to stay in His presence and make Him happy.
We started singing this song came to my rescue by Hillson United, and I burst into tears. I thought about all the times I struggled. All those moments I was persecuted. All those times I was made fun of because of my beliefs. All those times I lost friends, and have the most important people in my life fail me. I thought about all those times that I cried my heart out and asked God for help and guidance, and He always made things right. He always brought me through it and He was always fair. I may not know all the reasons why it has to happen but I know that my faith has grown stronger because of all of it. I know that I am closer to God now than ever before. Tears were falling down my cheeks, thanking God in my heart for His love.
Pastor asked anyone who wanted to have that anointing to kneel down. At first I was very shy. I didn’t want to be the only one to kneel down, but when I saw the person in front of me slowly bending her knees I went for it, and I started shaking and crying really hard. I can’t tell you the exact reason why I cried but I did, and I know it was because the Holy Spirit was stirring our hearts. His presence was so strong in that place, and I felt Him.
It’s so frustrating that I can’t explain it. I wish everyone could experience the Holy Spirit. I really do.
So as I was crying 5 people popped in my head, and I knew God was speaking to me. I know that these 5 people were in my life for a reason, and I know that God will bless my relationship with these people and he has a purpose for us. i told God how much I love these 5 girls, and how much I want them to be saved. my nose was all clogged up, the floor, my hand, my legs were wet from my tears, and i couldn't control my crying.
I can’t fully put my feelings into words, but God knows how much I love these people. And I pray that these 5 girls will one day know Him, and one day, they will have that personal relationship with God.
I’ve planted the seed. I’ve started sharing to them. In our normal conversations we would start talking about God, and the faith, and I know that the seed that has been planted will one day grow.
I love you girls
BBD Silvosa
Bea Fabregas
Kim Guillermo
Julie Botor
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